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The spiritual awaking of Mike Tyson
May 15, 2019

The spiritual awaking of Mike Tyson


Mike Tyson explains to Dan Le Batard the spiritual awakening he underwent after smoking poisonous venom from a toad.

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Via: Espn.


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Why 'Microdosing' LSD & Other Hallucinogens May Be The Saving Grace For People With Severe Depression & Anxiety
April 30, 2019

Why 'Microdosing' LSD & Other Hallucinogens May Be The Saving Grace For People With Severe Depression & Anxiety


What if your brain on acid, 'shrooms and Molly isn't such a bad thing after all?

Many might consider lysergic acid diethylamide (LSD), also known as "acid", taboo (and possibly even passé), yet the currently illegal and unregulated drug is rapidly gaining popularity, as well as media scrutiny and attention within the medical community.

The widespread illegality of these substances means little scientific data exists regarding their potential short and long-term positive or negative effects on either mental of physical health, but this time around, the trendy way of dropping acid and other hallucinogenics such as psilocybin "magic" mushrooms and 3,4-Methyl​enedioxy​methamphetamine (MDMA, aka "Molly" or "ecstasy") involves a practice called "microdosing."

rong>As one report in Scientific American explains:

"Microdosing involves taking roughly one-tenth the 'trip' dose of a psychedelic drug, an amount too little to trigger hallucinations but enough, its proponents say, to sharpen the mind. Psilocybin microdosers (including hundreds on Reddit) report that the mushrooms can increase creativity, calm anxiety, decrease the need for caffeine, and reduce depression."



Georgia (not her real name) was nine years old when her father was murdered.

Even at that young age, she says, “I hit a really hard trauma wall and I never really came out of it.”

She was consumed with anger, went four months without speaking, and had a severe depressive episode at 13.

The now 29-year-old, who works at a Washington, D.C. nonprofit, was diagnosed with persistent depressive disorder (dysthymia) — defined as a "continuous, long-term (chronic) form of depression" — four years ago.

At the time, she was prescribed the antidepressant Wellbutrin, a norepinephrine-dopamine reuptake inhibitor (NDRI), which was effective in treating her depression. But after she left her job and lost her health insurance, she could no longer afford prescription medication.


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Psychedelic therapy: The patients paying $2k to get high with their doctor
April 29, 2019

Psychedelic therapy: The patients paying $2k to get high with their doctor


Jesse Noakes had been battling his mental health for years when he stumbled across Carlo, a new breed of doctor who promised to change everything.

It’s about 3pm on a Tuesday and I’m in an apartment in Sydney with harbour views.

I can’t see much from where I am, though, lying on a couch with an eye mask covering my eyes and Handel’s Messiah playing through headphones.

A couple of hours earlier I’d been a bit nervous — around the time I swallowed a capsule of MDMA and two grams of powdered magic mushrooms. But I know the apartment’s owner, my therapist, is sitting on the floor across the room, with his dog curled up next to him, and it reassures me, so I lie back and allow the choral voices to swell until they fill my whole awareness, and I go somewhere else.

It wasn’t the first time I’d come to Sydney to spend an afternoon tripping. The first time, I drove across the Nullarbor from Perth to get there in an old ’93 Holden Barina — these days it is a short flight down from Byron. Not as far as Europe or New York, which is where my journey began.

In the middle of 2016 I went to a conference in Amsterdam dedicated to a field of research I’d only just heard about: psychedelic therapy. I told everyone I was attending as a journalist; in reality, I was on the hunt for a therapist of my own.

I flew halfway round the world in uncut desperation. After a decade of therapy and medications, I was as depressed as ever. One airless afternoon in January 2016, I rolled out of bed and pulled up an article I’d seen months earlier about American hospitals giving some patients magic mushrooms for depression and anxiety in clinical studies. Three-quarters showed significant improvements in their mental health.


That wasn’t all. Six placebo-controlled trials using MDMA for people with post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) from war and sexual assault found 68 per cent were in complete remission a year after three all-day sessions. After a couple of regular therapy sessions to prepare them, participants would come to a comfortable office and lie down on a sofa with an eye mask and headphones on and take a trip while a pair of therapists sat by their side.

One participant, Ed Thompson, a firefighter from South Carolina, told me his life before the trial “was kind of like a waking nightmare where all of these memories were randomly hitting me”. “There was a part of my brain that was stuck in those moments,” he said. “It was basically a constant panic attack that I lived in, an almost unending panic attack.”

When he enrolled in the trial, he rated 30 points higher than the most severe threshold for PTSD — and after three MDMA sessions, he no longer had PTSD.

“I’m happy again, I’m not numb, I love life, I love my family. I’m able to absorb the good moments and feel the bad ones. I couldn’t be better,” he said.

It was like stepping through a doorway into a secret room. Until now, I’d always thought psychedelics, which are illegal Schedule 9 substances in Australia, like LSD and mushrooms sent you crazy. Suddenly, it sounded like, used responsibly with appropriate therapeutic support, they could be effective ways of regaining sanity.

Patients say they feel a sense of peace like never before. Picture: Supplied

Patients say they feel a sense of peace like never before. Picture: SuppliedSource:istock


For several months, I investigated here in Australia. I quickly realised legal clinical trials were off limits. A small organisation called PRISM had been advocating psychedelic research here for years but appeared to have little support for their proposed studies.

At the Amsterdam conference, in between talks like “Brain imaging and depression research with psychedelics” and “MDMA for trauma integration”, I met a therapist I’ll call Carlo (all the names of underground therapists and their clients have been changed in this piece).

I explained how trapped I felt — dead to the world, unsure why it felt so unreal and distant all the time. “Come to New York,” he said. “I’ve got just the thing.”

Underground psychedelic therapy fills the gap left by limited trial spaces and a regular therapy paradigm that doesn’t do the job for many. A Vox article recently called it a “parallel mental health service” in the United States. “This stuff is exploding,” a therapist in California told me last year.

Dr Rick Doblin is the founder of the non-profit Multindisciplinary Association for Psychedelic Studies (MAPS) that has organised most of the research into MDMA therapy in the US. Although he’s spent decades establishing legal studies, he understands why so many people are turning to illegal alternatives.

“We’ve got people in regular therapy who are desperate and stuck. The laws make it impossible for them to access the help they need, so going to underground therapists is perfectly appropriate. However, I’m sad it’s the only option for some people — it means we’ve got to move quickly to legitimise it,” he said.

Ed Thompson is even more effusive. “People like the underground therapist you’re discussing have got to be some of the greatest heroes of our time because of the legal risks, because of the risks to their careers and knowing that it’s gotta be done regardless of stupid bureaucratic red tape.”

Professor Steve Kisley, Chair of the Psychiatrists Group of the Australian Medical Association, is more cautious.

“There are some promising findings, but they are insufficient at this time to advocate general clinical use. While use remains unregulated, there are dangers in terms of side-effects and toxicity from incorrect dosing and impurities in illegal supplies, which could outweigh any clinical benefit. The same would apply to ‘underground therapists’.”


The clinical research so far has been so promising the US medicines regulator has declared both MDMA and mushrooms “breakthrough therapies”, giving them additional resources to bring to market. But it’ll still be a couple of years before the final phase of trials are completed and psychedelic drugs become a legal therapy option for the first time since the 1960s (when substantial research was conducted, and everyone from Cary Grant to the founder of Alcoholics Anonymous discussed the benefits of therapy with LSD).

The Beatles famously experimented with psychedelic drugs. Picture: John Downing/Getty Images

The Beatles famously experimented with psychedelic drugs. Picture: John Downing/Getty ImagesSource:Supplied

In the meantime, researchers and therapists I’ve spoken with across America reckon there are hundreds of facilitators guiding patients through psychedelic experiences. Training varies, and so do prices. I spoke to two therapists in California, both of whom have graduate degrees in psychology — one charges on a sliding scale that starts at $US500 ($A700), the other charges $US2000 ($A2800) per session.

Carlo, my guy in New York, charges up to $1500 for an overnight stay.


Why would people want to fork over a fortnight’s pay to take drugs with their therapist? I asked another of Carlo’s clients, Alba, a New Yorker in his late 20s who has suffered from chronic social anxiety since his teens. Both his parents had abused him growing up — he remembers having his head bashed against heavy oak bed frames when he was just a toddler.

Before he had his first session with Carlo late last year, he was drinking a bottle of vodka every evening to control the crippling paranoia and discomfort he felt at work. Several years ago, after he attempted suicide twice within a week, he vowed he wouldn’t try again until he’d fully exhausted his options. Through a subreddit thread he contacted people who put him in touch with therapists, which led finally to Carlo’s loft.

At one point in his first session with MDMA, he suddenly felt a new sense of safety and love. He asked Carlo for a hug, which he’d never done with his own father. “I don’t like people touching me. I just get really, really tense. But with him, for some reason my guard was down.”

Brain imaging has shown MDMA profoundly deactivates the amygdala, the part of the brain that regulates our fear and anxiety responses and promotes production of oxytocin, known as the “trust hormone”.

After that first session, Alba quit drinking. He’s been sober for five months now, bar a brief relapse after Christmas. He lives in a much larger, lighter apartment, he’s turning up to work on rough days when previously he’d have stayed in bed with a bottle of vodka, and he feels optimistic about his future. “It allows me to look at all those horrible situations in a completely different light.”

Patients report the treatment as being like nothing they’ve ever experienced. Picture: iStock

Patients report the treatment as being like nothing they’ve ever experienced. Picture: iStockSource:Supplied

Dr Ben Sessa is a British psychiatrist leading a clinical trial in the UK using MDMA to treat alcoholism. All but one of the patients he’s treated so far have stayed sober after their therapy with the drug, Sessa reports. “They talk about ‘I can see the light, I can see the folly of alcohol, and I have no interest in returning to it’,” he said.

Sessa is cautious about therapists recreating his trial underground. “I have no doubt there are some excellent underground therapists who have really good results, but there are also plenty of scare stories of very poor ones. What the underground therapists tend to miss is the importance of the non-drug sessions.”

Post-drug therapy sessions, known as integration, is a crucial tenet of the psychedelic therapy movement. Some of the drug experiences people have are so far outside the realms of their usual experience they need help to make sense of them, says Dr Rick Doblin.

“The idea of a one-dose miracle cure is really dangerous. It requires a lot of work on an ongoing basis,” he said.


Of course, nothing works for everyone, all the time. The first two sessions I had using MDMA, with a European doctor I also met in Amsterdam, were underwhelming, and left me feeling disappointed and desperate.

I had some visions, but probably nothing more than you’d expect when you spend all day lying in a dark room with your eyes closed. It was nothing like the breakthrough I’d been hoping for, and after the first session I messaged a friend: “The drugs don’t work.”

I felt more like it was me that didn’t work.

For others, rather than finding nothing, their sessions revealed too much. A friend of mine in California found immediate relief from PTSD during his first MDMA session, but then suffered weeks of black depression afterwards.

Since then, his road has been rocky — while he’s done further sessions with other psychedelics and therapists, he still fights with panic and depression, and uses exercise, lifestyle choices and prescription medication to try to keep the wolf from the door.

Psilocybe cubensis is a species of psychedelic mushroom. Picture: Supplied

Psilocybe cubensis is a species of psychedelic mushroom. Picture: SuppliedSource:Supplied


Maria offers psychedelic therapy from what would normally be the dining room of her ordinary brick bungalow in the forest outside a major Australian city.

A rooster crows outside the window as we chat at her kitchen counter over green tea. She closes the dishwasher as I sit down.

Maria runs both group and individual sessions, with a range of “medicines” — MDMA, psilocybin, ayahuasca. She charges $270 for a group session and $550 for one-on-one — not bad for an intensive seven-hour treatment that carries serious legal risk.

“I try not to think about it,” she tells me when I ask about it.

I’ve spoken to two therapists overseas who’ve been prosecuted for treating patients with psychedelics. Both received suspended sentences, and both continue to work with clients — one now runs a legal psilocybin retreat in Jamaica.

Both Carlo and Maria operate by word of mouth, and besides knowing someone who’s already been, it’s not clear how you’d find one of them.

“I don’t really know,” Maria says. “At the moment it’s just referrals from people that I’ve treated. There’s definitely more interest in psychedelics in the past few years.”

Maria has a client list of more than 600 people — Carlo says he receives about three new inquiries a week, and when I spoke to him recently he’d just flown back to New York after treating four clients in LA.

A member of the team behind the recently announced trial of psilocybin for anxiety and depression in Melbourne said he was aware of perhaps a dozen underground therapists in this country. “But there are probably more, given that most try to keep a very low profile. Some of the therapists keep in touch and share information, but even that’s risky in the current legal climate.”


Dr Doblin founded MAPS in 1986 to legalise MDMA and has spent three decades of tireless advocacy to get to a point where it’s suddenly foreseeable. He says his quixotic mission is motivated by gratitude.

“I will never repay all the benefits I’ve got from psychedelics. All of this work has still not even paid back for the good I’ve received from these drugs,” he said.

I know how he feels. In Sydney, as the choir reached its rapturous peak, I saw the world as a big, blue blanket, each of us a stick poking into it, like a million tiny tent poles.

Movement from any one stick shifted the tautness and balance of the blanket, weighing down or buoying up every other stick in a contiguous wave. Seeing is believing, as they say, and this was more like a real-life VR experience of a different world. I felt a rapturous sense of connection and possibility.

Jesse Noakes is one of a growing number of people seeking relief in psychedelic therapy. Picture: Peta Roebuck

Jesse Noakes is one of a growing number of people seeking relief in psychedelic therapy. Picture: Peta RoebuckSource:Supplied

It didn’t go away when the drug wore off. For months afterwards, I felt more confident and socially connected than ever before. The world was a lot more fun. I spoke each week to my therapist on the phone. We spent much of those conversations discussing my work, trying to care for traumatised teenagers who had been removed from their families. I found them wildly intense and incredibly energising. “It’s the best therapy I’ve ever done,” I told him, “with the possible exception of coming to Sydney to take mushrooms and MDMA with you.”

Psychedelic therapy is currently illegal in Australia and unregulated use carries significant risks that may outweigh any benefits.


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I Smoked DMT 600 Times in Three Years
April 29, 2019

I Smoked DMT 600 Times in Three Years

Or the equivalent of nearly once every other day.

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Scientists Microdosed Rats With DMT, and It Was Both Good and "Concerning"
March 23, 2019

Scientists Microdosed Rats With DMT, and It Was Both Good and "Concerning"


People who experiment with microdosing claim that it can help a person to think more creatively, feel less anxious, and sharpen focus. But despite plenty of anecdotal evidence and Silicon Valley’s ample claims that these positive effects are real, scientists still can’t definitively say that microdosing — consistently taking low doses of psychedelic drugs — actually works. Bringing us closer to a clear answer is a new study showing that microdosing can indeed have beneficial effects — but not without potential downsides.

This ACS Chemical Neuroscience study, published Monday, is one of the first to test how psychedelic microdosing effects animal behavior. The scientists, led by University of California, Davis assistant professor David Olson, Ph.D., microdosed male and female rats with N,N-dimethyltryptamine, the chemical substance better known as DMT and the principal psychoactive component in the hallucinogenic brew ayahuasca. Previous studies established that DMT affects rodents much like it does people, impacting behaviors relevant to mood, cognitive function, and anxiety.

Olson tells Inverse that his team used DMT because they wanted to experiment with a drug that “was going to be the most applicable to the broadest range of psychedelic compounds.” What he means is that, when the popular psychedelics LSD or psilocybin are broken down into their psychedelic elements at the molecular level, you’re pretty much left with DMT. Because of this shared pharmacology, it’s fair to say that tests on DMT can be translated to other psychedelic drugs.


Scientists already knew that DMT affected rats, but they didn’t know how a microdose of DMT would make them behave. And since there’s no well-established definition of what constitutes a “microdose,” the scientists gave them the rat equivalent of what humans typically use: one-tenth of a hallucinogenic dose. Furthermore, since young adults appear to be the most likely to microdose, they also used rats of equivalent age.

For two months, the young rats were microdosed every three days, and the researchers began the behavioral tests two weeks in. Importantly, the behavioral tests occurred on the days when the rats were not given drugs — the idea being that any behavioral changes would then have been truly caused by adaptations in the brain.

The behavioral tests were designed to measure how the rats responded to anxiety and fear-inducing situations as well as to examine how microdosing affected their sociability and aspects of cognitive function. It didn’t appear to change aspects of the mice’s memory or their ability to socialize, but two of the tests revealed how the drug regime changed their reaction to anxiety and fear.


Read the full article here: iNVERSE

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March 23, 2019


Microdosing DMT

The idea of taking small doses of psychedelic drugs has gained cachet in recent years, especially in the world of tech startups, where practitioners believe it can enhance creativity and fight depression.

Now, new research shows that microdosing DMT — taking doses of the drug that are too low to cause hallucinations — could indeed reduce symptoms of depression and anxiety, according to The Atlantic — and though data is still scarce, the work could pave the way to new mental health treatments.


An important caveat to the new research, which was published Monday in the journal ACS Chemical Neuroscience: its subjects were rats, not people.

But David Olson, a chemist and neuroscientist at the University of California at Davis, thinks his team’s study is important nonetheless because it provides some of the first evidence that there are benefits to taking psychedelic drugs below a dosage threshold that would cause you to, well, trip.

“I really wanted to answer the question as to whether or not the hallucinogenic effects of these compounds were necessary for the therapeutic effects,” he told The Atlantic.

Cytotoxic Effects

Still, before you start microdosing DMT at work, it’s probably worth waiting for more data. In some rats, Olson’s team found, the DMT appeared to have “cytotoxic effects” that killed brain cells. At the very least, more research is needed.

“There’s that saying,” Olson told The Atlantic, “that the difference between a medicine and a poison is the dose.”

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October 09, 2016


Have you experienced an encounter with some type of non physical entity before? Were you sober? Under the influence? 

Here are 10 brief encounters with entities from Acidmathers!

 I had just started dating this wonderful guy, but I had extensive history dating people that were nice before becoming abusive to me. I was deeply in love, but was so scared that my boyfriend didn't really love me, that I didn't love him.

I had been
holding on to some dmt for several months, waiting for the right moment to try it. I cleaned my room and prepared a gravity bong packed with a blend of calming herbs and meditated on my question: am I really in love? Does he really love me?

After inhaling, I sat back and closed my eyes. I traveled through a wormhole and popped out the other side and found hundreds of green hands dancing around each other and a green laser outline of my boyfriend.

Abby  My first trip, I felt a very womanly motherly figure next to me the whole time. Kind of guiding me through it. I could feel all of the 5 individuals in the room, plus her. And her presence was very calming to me

Suddenly a humanoid figure made entirely from white light with rainbow tentrils sprouting from its back appeared to me. It told me that I had nothing to fear, if he doesn't love you yet, he will. It told me that I had a happy future to look forward to and that the love I was experiencing was entirely real.

Kyle My dmt breakthrough I'm sure I interacted with other beings but I don't really remember doing that specifically. The whole trip was so hazy after coming back but I remember living what seemed a lifetime in a matter of minutes in another dimension or universe as another being with no recollection of myself here on earth.

Brady My third time trying it I was in a room with friends. Darkest experience of my life but the most humbling. I got to my dimension/space, so have it, and this crazy old witch lady was sitting next to me laughing. She then projected ages of war, death, and murder in front of me. She laughed the whole time and at the end she looks at me and says "you think that's this..." she then proceeded to eat her face, followed by her entire flesh until she was nothing but a sack of intestines and a bloody mess. This whole time she was laughing and at the end she wouldn't let me look away. My friend then walked in the room scratched my head and said "hi Brady" and that pulled me out..

Jacob There was these jesterlike creatures that kept fucking with me. They were laughing at me then proceeded to show me a series of transforming, undescribable beauties. Each thing they showed me was esentially a different emotion/concept.

Fran  I witnessed a giant snake looking close at me, teaching me infinite understanding and charging my soul battery. I also gave birth to a strange thing, a machine made of wood and fabric that would only walk if the wind blew.

Lisa I have had communication with a snake/worm like being. Always comes from the left and seems to enter me somehow. I think it's teaching me to communicate telepathically but also is so wondrous in appearance that I find it distracting and difficult to pay attention.

Ashley I witnessed fractals of growing jungle formed Gaias face and she spoke to me. Another time, I had a crazy trip about some beings from another dimension or planet. They were tall slim beings with long human like faces and hyper inverted legs. They were in some sort of ceremony. It was on a mountainous volcanic island and was semi green. They were dancing and vibrating in such a strange manner in intersecting lines I had never witnessed anything move like that. The colors and the sound were hard to comprehend. The ones standing with me communicated telepathically to me that they were surprised at how well I could perceive what was happening. I wish I knew more now. The trip didnt last long enough haha I wish I could recreate it somehow. I never want to forget.

Tyler I met a man who called himself the bearer of truth. He warned that to know everything was to face some harsh realities. We were then transported to the rooftop and he showed me that he lived as a hermit. He then laughed and told me that what I aspire to be. He then sent me to an alien womb where I heard unitelligable and felt that the beings around me were analyzing my very existence. I then started feeling scared because I could no longer move. They then opened the womb and sent me back to my bed.

Christopher  Mainly just kind of like the machine elves that mckenna talked about that were drilling and fixing something in my head which actually felt pretty amazing, I was stressed about stuff before and it gave me a strong feelibg that everything would be ok.

These experiences may just simply hallucinations of the mind or maybe the experiences with entities is showcasing another layer of reality that is typically hidden to us, or even possibly.. they are both!

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What are the DMT machine elves?
October 01, 2016

What are the DMT machine elves?

Perhaps they are the programmers, and some say they might even be us in another dimension. Machine elves may sort of be like guardian angels, or spirit guides, just with a different purpose

When I met the machine elves, they were working very hard to hold every piece of matter together. The more my vision zoomed in on objects and people around the room, the more I saw of them. They seemed happy to be doing their job, but also clueless as to there being any other possible role for them in the world. I'm not sure that there is one.

Have you seen them before  or heard Terence McKenna talk about them? I've seen all types on entities on it, but never any i would have considered elves. side note: i thought there were gnomes hiding from me behind furniture the first time i ate shrooms (a large dose). 

Another idea is that the machine elves are the architects and technicians of the universe working round the clock to bring you reality. They are ancient, timeless. They always have been and always will be. They are our higher selves. The elves are ourselves. Just in another higher dimension.

What if they are the energy that runs the universe? When I blast off I'm transported to a "room?" which to me seems like an energy hub. They move in and out of everything, they are everything. And so am I. They showed me amazing things I can't easily describe, and they said so much (telepathically). But I came to understand (maybe) why Terrence called them machine elves. They are machines. They are the mechanism that runs "the hub".


Acidmathers accounts on what the machine elves may be:

    1. I'm not sure about elves but the entities i saw were constructing and deconstructing at lighting speed like building a lego land dismantling and rebuilding a completely different visual space around me
    2. Upon entry the machine Elves are usually with me in a room working on the spiritual template of my physical organism. The primary goal is always the gradual rolling back of amnesia to reveal full spectrum consciousness without the dis-integrating result of Reichs schizophrenic split.They teach the methods of communication and movement and the definition of freedom as time, space and form.
    3. Always benevolent although sometimes brutal with the Truth.
    4. Navigating as a singularity inside the allness takes some practice and the purpose built SuperLuminal beings are the best teachers I've encountered so far.
    5. Call them what you will they are present in pure heart potential initiates experiences until the training wheels are off so to speak.
    6. I don't now but I've worried that they are running a "matrix" type show. They are busy keeping up this reality as a front to theirs and when they see us, they understand we've broken through. That's why they sometimes panic and some don't care, They have personalities just like we think we do. Also some try to lead us around to stun us into fading back to our reality.

I have all sorts of theories on psychedelic entities. ultimately im not sure if i believe we are contacting interdimensional beings or anything, and its more likely that these are projections of the self which may be distorted in particular ways by how a specific compound filters our processes and data gathering in regard to anything from geometrical focus to facial recognition to perhaps archetypes within the subconscious and subjective imagination, memories, and dreams.

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